Eating Through Exhaustion

Dear Katherine,

It’s been a while. **cue Staind music lol** 

I actually felt well-enough to write today and I am in the right headspace to do so, so here I am writing you a letter on our Plate by State blog site. I’ve actually written in three chunks, blocked and labeled them as Part I, Part II and Part III, kind of like a saga series. I figured it was easier to organize it this way rather than writing transitions.

PART 1: THE PAST MONTH

It’s been a roller-coaster of non-stop things from getting new jobs, to quitting old jobs, traveling to visit friends in Dallas, to Aguascalientes/Guanjuato/San Miguel del Allende, back to a wedding in Aguascalientes, to exploring/experiencing LA LA Land with you with fresh east coast eyes; you, working remotely, to me, transitioning to a new position; us, to surgeries, etc… the list goes on and on and on.

And the great thing about all of this is that we’ve experienced a lot (if not all) of this all together. It is definitely comforting to know that I’m not alone and that we’re able to experience these moments and memories together.

[insert emotional and beautifully moving montage of our friendship here]

[lol jk here are a few photos of food and friendship from Dallas instead]

 

 

We’ve come a long way since London. I’m not sure if there was one defining moment in our friendship, but rather a series of events that drew us closer together. I like that, while our experiences are shared, we have our own methods on how we handle things, view or experience situations and circumstances; which makes it all the more (wait for it) “…interesting.”

Well, “it is what it is,” right? LOL.

Back to Mexico. So I did greatly enjoy being able to consume whatever deliciously authentic Mexican food I could put into my mouth. The shrimp ceviche, the cheese (mas queso por favor), the street food quesadillas and the squid soup with all the seasonings were all so muy delicioso! I still could’ve had about 12 more of those guava and pomegranate alcoholic drinks too, that seemingly tasted like it contained no tequila at all. Aguascalientes was a dream-like experience and all of our memories made – especially in that van on our way to Guanajuato and San Miguel del Allende and back (I will never forget that hailstorm and that evening we got a flat tire on a rainy road in Mexico) – were indelible. We most definitely must go back to Guanajuato again. Good times.

Anywhoo~ so many of these memories that stemmed from all of us being together in London… I actually cannot believe that London was three years ago. Time flies faster and faster with each and every passing year, eh? The great thing about friendship is that friends have a slew of inside jokes that no one else in the world will ever understand unless others are invited and allowed in to be a part of the special inner circle. I guess I’m feeling pretty lucky to have you as my friend and I can only hope you feel the same way. BTW, do you want some chocolate? 🙂

[Here’s a nice photo of the four of us in Mexico. We’re quite the international bunch, eh?]

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Awww~ Sweet photo of us four friends from America to England to Mexico and back.

PART II: POST-SURGERY

Hey surgery buddy.

The surgery this time around was not as bad as last time, but I think I was still equally exhausted. Mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually, everything inside my body was just tired. You know that feeling of just being completely drained of energy and not being able to talk or even eat? It’s like I’m not even a human being. I’m just a droid, drifting in and out of sleep and my only duty is to take the scheduled pills and go to the bathroom and walk the dog. Actually, the only things that kept me feeling human was walking the dog and eating the foods that my mom made me eat. Those mom meals basically gave me what little strength I had to power through the day to sleep and recuperate what little battery life I had inside of myself.

OMG. That last post you included this link about the story of H-Mart which brought me to tears! [INSERT ALL OF THE TEARS HERE]. I relate to the article about all the things mentioned, minus the fact that my mom is very much alive and well (thank God) – man, that whole standing in the grocery store with one arm full of groceries, asking my mom what that one ingredient is called and what I should buy – it is so #Relatable. #AsianAmerican #AsianMoms #lol.

My mom has been making me eat mush, porridge, potato soup and other liquid-y stuff, trying to get me to get my strength back. I get irritable or cranky or am too tired to thank her sometimes, but lately I’ve been really thinking about how much I appreciate and love her so much for caring about me and taking such good care of me. I think so many times we think our mothers will live forever and take them for granted. Why are moms so strong and beautiful!? **cries hysterically** No, but seriously, why is a mother’s love, just EVERYTHING?!

Shoutout to all the moms out there! Ya’ll should be appreciated every damn day!

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A lovely photo of my mama & I (L-R)

PART III: EVERYTHING ELSE

So the busy seasons are all creeping up on us again like the waves of the ocean tide rising closer and closer to our toes until our feet are engulfed in water and before we know it, we are sinking into the sand and drenched in the salty sea… lol. This is Halloween, Thanksgiving, Hanukkah, Christmas, Kwanzaa, Boxing Day, New Year’s… I’m already even more exhausted having written the slew of all those holidays now lol oh and am I missing any other holidays? I’ve been working on costumes, carving pumpkins, baking (yes, I actually baked a pumpkin pie and some gluten-free pumpkin muffins with chocolate chips and caramel the other day) and decorating. Are you proud of me? *smug smiles like a child*

I am, quite honestly, a bit surprised at myself this year.

I’m just doing things as they come up and am flexibly planning things as they come to me in my life. I think I’m enjoying the process, but I think I’d like to actually complete things… everything is in the process at the moment. I do have a lot of self-reflecting and internalizing to do. I am taking your thoughts to heart and really need to think about what to do for me in my life, but I’m also trying to express myself creatively as well so I’ve sort of been fostering a more creative space here at the loft. I’m trying to balance the business part of me with the creative part of me to make a better me to do business creatively and vice versa. It’s a juggle struggle, but I’m sure I’ll get it eventually.

I used to enjoy being IN the process of starting and going through the various projects I work on, but now, I’d just like to get them all completed. I want to see the fruits of my labor. I want results and I want them now! I have to remind myself to, “Be patient, young padawan,” for I think the end is near and it will (hopefully) all be over soon. I’m not sure if I’m talking about just one thing or many things in general, but I am just going to create and keep creating because we, as humans, must create things in life! Am I right?! Who’s with me?!?!?!

Anyway, things are rolling along at a snail’s pace, but it’s getting there. Perhaps it will reach turtle speed soon; and by turtle-speed I mean the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles’ speed.

I read your last two posts again and I’m sorry I haven’t updated you on my London and Amsterdam trip. I’ll have to do a quick flashback re-cap post on that trip. It was a flashback to our European adventure days when we lived like Brits… I’ll have to add photos too. Sigh~ so many photos. I’ve included only a few pictures in this post, but I should include more – I think photos are a nice way of keeping nice memories. Anywhoo~zZz… I definitely plan on going back to Amsterdam. I could live in that city.

Also. I intend on sticking with this whole “three sections posts” because I think it keeps my thoughts organized; and hopefully, it’s a lot easier to read/navigate through my post.

I’ll show you the completed Halloween costumes once I’m done. In the meantime, here are the pumpkins we carved the other night. Bryan literally carved Olive the dog’s face into his pumpkin. It is glorious. Needless to say, I was impressed with his creativity and carving skills and how it surprisingly turned out pretty well. My pumpkin is the one with the pumpkin cupcake on it. I suppose I wanted sweets that evening lol.

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I created a little .GIF of Olive the dog too lol.

Well, that’s all I have to say for now.

I miss you KOS! Hope things are swell in the east coast (feast/beast coast).

Until next time, stay awesome!

From the west coast (best coast),

1/2 of KatherAnne

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Kather-Anne (L-R)

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